We went to Redang...

My company trip for this year is Redang. Kelvin and i went Redang together with my colleagues. Supposingly, we want to bring JQ along, but my mother and my parents-in-law not agreed, so end up just Kelvin and i...of course, i also think that Redang trip not suitable for a 2-year-old boy...

This is a 'sad' story...pls prepare tissue when u wanted to read this...maybe is a sad story for a sad mother like me la....

I started to tell JQ that Kelvin n i will be away for few days for Lui-Sing (trip) and Zuo-Gong (work), and asked him OK or not. Those read by old post, you will know that if JQ said No, then if we do it, he will be angry n will lao-gai. So, since he said no, i will have to continue to pursuade him, till he said ok...

Few days before our trip, JQ finally said Ok, then he said : Ahhh, Mai Ah (means he will not 'Ahhhh' or scream or lao-gain when we not around:) So, i told JQ that he was a good boy.

On 1/7, Kelvin called me and said when i reached home, pls call his father, so that his father will bring JQ to go out, so that JQ will not see usleaving, then he will not cry. I knew that this arrangement was not good, but i did not object, since Kelvin already agreed, and my in-law who helped me to take care JQ wanted to do so. This is a big fault!

I knew that JQ will not cry even he saw us, and i felt that JQ wanted to say goodbye to us, same as me, i would like to say goodbye to JQ before we went to Redang....end up, we really did not say Goodbye to JQ... :(

When we in Redang, JQ really very good boy, he really did not 'Ahhhh' (means he did not lao-gai). But when during sleeping time, he did look for us, so my in-law told him that we went to work, so he was ok, but he looks a bit sad la. And, in the midnight, he will call Papa and Mama in his dream....he missing us....pity boy!

Oh, when we in Redang, Kelvin's sister take care of JQ at night. And, no need to say, i missed JQ a lot when we in the Redang trip. I kept telling Kelvin that if JQ is here, he will do this do that....JQ will sure happy!

Then yesterday night, we reached home late. We reached about 11pm. JQ already went upstairs. He did not sleep, and my in-law said he got lao-gai a bit, as someone told him that we coming back, so he wanted to wait for us.

Then, huh, feel like 1 2 cry now...i ran up to my room to see my lovely JQ. Then, we met half way, as my sister-in-law brought JQ down. When JQ saw me, i knew that he was surprised and happy, then he let me carry him. BUT, then, he asked my sis-in-law to carry him, he didn't want me to carry him! I knew he angry on me, coz i did not say goodbye to him when we went to Redang. You know what, he didn't want to look at me too...my heart so pain then! My tear almost came out at that moment!

I can feel that he actually missed me, but he also angry on me, so he didn't want to look at me and didn't want to let me carry him. After i comfort him, and said sorry to him, then only he let me carry him, but i still feel that he still angry on me...

Then, i let him read book, talked with him, played with him, apologized with him again, then slowly, he is ok, and i know he forgive us. Then, we asked him to give us big hug, and he gave us a very big hug...

At night, i still let him slept by his own, and i tap him to sleep. He cannot sleep but he did not make noise and look at me quietly, like afraid we will leave again... After i told him that we will not leave, and will sleep together with him, then only he slept, and his hand put on my face to ensure that i will not leave...my heart so pain then....my son still so small, but he already so lovly, anyhow, we hurt his heart....

In the midnight, he suddenly called Mama. I woke up and checked on him, then i told him that Mama is here. Then he put his little palm on my face, and continue to sleep...i really blame myself that time...

I told myself that i will never leave JQ without saying goodbye to him!! Unless very very special case that i cannot think of now....

JQ, Mama very sorry to you! Please forgive us, and this will not happen again...Now, i worried on our Taiwan trip. But i know the trip really not suitable to JQ, i will talk to JQ next week, to prepare him...or, i should really consider to bring JQ along??